WARNING: Before you continue, please note this gets very personal, so you will learn things about me that may make you sad or upset, don’t worry about me. I’ve coped all these years and will continue to do that. I’m happy.
Easter break has recently finished and the University has come back alive again with over 20,000+ students around, considering the hall campus for the past 3 weeks has been dead quiet and I’ve kind of gone insane with no noise has been crazy. It’s good to hear people again! Haha!
In terms of my work, things have got slightly better, I’ve managed to gain a fairly good pass in my Java assignment project and C assignment project, the other assignments are still to follow to see how they’re going to turn out. I’ve still got the exams to think about as well might I add.
My grandma has returned home and things are better than it was, she isn’t able to do as much as she could do before she went to hospital but things are getting back on the right track for now and I hope and cross my fingers things get back to a complete recovery.
However with that all being said, you probably don’t want me to talk about the stuff I’ve said above. You may have heard recently over the news about “Ashley Hicman”, my best friend and still is my best friend may I note. It was recently unveiled that she wasn’t who she said she was in terms of her name, picture and age. Ashley wasn’t a she, it was a he and yes although this was a big in a sense, I don’t consider Tanner any different to who I knew Ashely was, he’s an amazing guy and in fact I’ve told a lot to him more than people may think, I respect his honesty and dignity he shows. It has taken a long time to think about what has happened lately but at the end of the day, it’s happened, you learn from your mistakes and you learn new areas which too be honest, you need to learn to grow and understand what can happen to you and others in life. Tanner will always be best friends with me, I don’t want to lose that friendship we have.
It made me think about life in general, my love life, social life as you may think it’s crazy but it’s not, my social/love life is probably as not as good as you, yes you, who’s reading this. I’ve had a lot of bad things happen to me over the years and months and nothing just wants to go the right way for me. If that’s in terms of Ashley or another person ‘Jared’ who did something similar, or being bullied for all my high school career with my grades being affected physically and emotionally, iI remember the reports I had to do, to ‘tell them off’, that made things worse because I became a ‘snitch’ when all I was doing was the right thing. If I didn’t I would just be attacked more, I’m not the fighter/if I get picked on, I wouldn’t attack back. I was mainly bullied due to my personality of doing what I could do for people, male or female and they didn’t like that as I weren’t like them and also as I was a little bigger than them. There are also other things that have happened but I just don’t think I’m ready to say them yet.
I started Club Penguin wanting a community, back in 2007/2006 it wasn’t that strong as it is now, I’m proud to say that I’m one of the bloggers still writing for Club Penguin and also I’ve met many friends across the years helping people out, being more than just online friends in some cases, yes I’ve actually met people online in real life due to Club Penguin. It’s turned my life better in some ways, it’s helped me towards my BSc Computer Science degree which I’ve always dreamed of doing and one day doing what helped me to get there, joining Disney or even Club Penguin when I graduate. I’m still here today doing what I do for Club Penguin and glad because you guys make me a lot happier on some days and really do cheer me up.
Although having this, the negatives sometimes do out weigh the positives in some aspect..
I can never love someone or even get the courage to approach girls in a term of being more than a friendship, I was different in a way in high school, I treated girls with respect/honestly/dignity like I thought a normal guy in my school would do, clearly they don’t, I’m in a way not a stereotype of a guy in the school I used to me in. If you know me personally and have ever told me something that should never be shared, you know, you know.. I haven’t told anyone, I’ve never had people come up to me and say ‘YOU DID THIS!’ – and if that has occurred, I always show ‘evidence’ in a way, to show I’m a good guy, I really am a good guy. In a way I think people won’t approach me to be in a relationship due to the way I look, I’m a little bit bigger than average, I enjoy playing rugby, I’m pretty good at it. University is good and fun and although I complain sometimes about the workload, it’s actually something I want to do in life and learn, so I do love it, even if I say it annoys me, haha!
I post this as people may think my life is all ‘good’ in a way, but no one until today knew about my past the way that I’ve wrote in this post. Life is pretty much unfair for me.
What I’m trying to say is, you learn a lot in life, be as happy as you can, I’m still happy with all what’s happened to me.
‘Stay hungry, stay foolish’ – Steve Jobs
Regards to you all and a good day!
P.S: You’ll have to mind some areas if it doesn’t make sense, it’s 3:30 in the morning here when I made this post and I’ll have to check over it later. I may add more as it’s so early at the moment I might of missed/said something that needs to be changed.